Defineing oneself

So I think one needs to identify who he or she is and I don't think we always know. But I think it helps to have an idea of what we're made up of. I have been trying to figure this stuff out for some time and I think it's time I put it down on paper, at least as much as I have figured out. I sort of narrowed it down to seven things that make me up. I will delve into each a little bit.

I was a warrior. For about ten years of my adult life I was an infantry soldier in the US Army. It's still a big part of my life. A lot of me has been molded by those years in the army and a lot of my beliefs also. I built things within myself there, loyalty, integrity, ability to serve. These are some of the most important virtues. And I think I would be armed with much weaker versions if not for the Army.

I am a Father and it is the most important job I have. It's my belief that there isn't a more important job and my children mean the world to me. I can only hope that I can pass on some lessons that will help them when they are adults. In all reality though, I think they pass on more lessons to me.

I am a Salesman, not by choice but appointment. I realize with my past experiences, it is possibly the most flexible job I could get with the greatest potential. In other words, It provides the best financial benefit to help support my family with my limits education and experience.

I need to serve. This I have determined after being out of the Army for some years now. I have felt empty ever since exiting. My family is the one thing to help fill that void. I am looking for other ways to serve now. And when I say serve, I don't necessarily mean the government. I mean humanity or parts of it.

I want to be an artist. But I am not one. Nonetheless, I have taken upon myself to learn the ukulele. I'm pretty positive I may not get much further than playing 'Twinkle Twinkle Little Star”, but it's art. I will also be working on writing more. I may never get beyond blog posts. We will have to see.

I'm a bit of a fan of the primal movement. And I feel my health is something I need to pay attention to. I find the paleo/primal lifestyle mixed with a little bit of good ole' infantry conditioning makes the most sense to me.

I am a Baha'i. And though on the bottom of this list, it may be most important. It's my faith and I am an awful representation of it. But aren't we all works in progress? This is where I am building my other virtues. Empathy, compassion, kindness and others are all things to work towards.

So in reality, you may see I am a bit of a mess. But this is my mess. One has to take the hand he's dealt. I plan on making the best of it. All these items make me who I am today, and build me towards who I will be tomorrow. All I can do is my very best to move in the right direction.

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